In regards to my own mental health
I think I had my first visual hallucination today. Actually it was reoccuring but mute.
I'm pretty fucking shaken up right now
Said without thinking that I'd add tonight to my work schedule, I'm working the next 4 nights overnight in a row. I'm completely exhausted, I get home from 7-8am in the morning and sleep half of the day away usually waking up around 3-4pm. I really need to find a new job, this overnight stuff is completely messing me up.
Quote:In regards to my own mental health
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Don't think about it too hard, you'll only stress yourself out, whatever you saw was not real, it was just your mind playing tricks on you and dancing out of step.
I know it's easy as anything for me to type this, you've got the harder job of actually dealing with it, but the best thing you can do is just relax and let it go.
The problem is, they were daily things that normally happen. Like I got to work early, thought I saw my boss opening the store right in front of me. Tried to open the door after him, it was locked. The store was empty and everything was dark. So I called him and said he'd be in at 10 and wasn't there, was I sure my co-worker didn't open it and forget to keep it unlocked.
My co-worker was 20 minutes late, and I clearly saw my boss opening it. After that I saw "my boss" doing things around the store, and kept asking him why he was moving things that were a) never moved b) not him or anyone for that matter.
I don't know it's just a freaky experience overall. Granted it wasn't anything menacing or terrifying, it was my boss who is a wonderful guy and a good friend. But just the fact that I honestly had such a hard time discerning reality from fiction, especially in the work environment is pretty concerning.
I'm too tired for today's shit.
so my campus is closed down for today and tomorrow due to the hurricane
I'm starting to get cabin happy
I need to get out of here
Woops, slept til 4: 30 again.
There are much worse things in the world to be angry about but with the recent storm all of my orders have been delayed.
Normally this wouldn't be a big deal but I'm running on dying/basically dead cartos and drops of liquid. With the recent developments in my condition this is a serious problem because vaping nicotine (especially when it tastes good) really calms me down.
Looks like I'm gonna be a miserable, hallucinating bastard for a few days.
I'd been doing such a good job with getting 5+ hours of sleep this semester. Then for a week I let myself stay up late because I had to cram hardcore for exams that all got scheduled around the same time.
My exams are over and I'm procrastinating like crazy and letting myself get ~3 hours of sleep because my sense of urgency is gone. I knew this was going to happen. Hopefully it's early enough to fix it so it doesn't become an everyday thing.
So due to Hurricane Sandy, there's downed trees on either side of my street.
Actually, the downed trees are on either side of my property.
We have power on my street, but the one line that's down (and lying right in the street) is the cable line, kinda leaving me to use only phone internet.
Kudos to my electric company though, we were only out of power for 3 hours!
Holy shit I'm the opposite of rosy right now I'm getting cabin fever and it's only been 30 minutes. I wasn't claustrophobic until right now and I'm about to go nuts. The worst part is that I have power, so the appeal to leave is incredibly tempting, BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE OF THESE ASSHOLE TREES. Thanks, Sandy, you dumb bitch. ):
Our power went out 2-3 times but only briefly.
power's good internet is down. Using my aunt's internet because I have homework still due today augh.
Oh and a ton shingles came off the roof and now we have leaks here and there.
FUCK
i've been extremely angry pretty much all day
(10-30-2012, 02:37 PM)Vipershark Wrote: [ -> ]i've been extremely angry pretty much every day of my entire life
oh me too
My feet hurt and I've got the sniffles.