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I had a dream where I played Metroid Dread.

Then I woke up, and remembered the game isn't real.

And I was very sad

I had a really shitty day at work today.
I basically kept fucking up over and over on a bunch of orders and it pissed my manager off and he called me out on it when it kept happening.
It's not like I was doing it on purpose or anything but I kept making stupid mistakes over and over and my manager started yelling at me for it.
It got to the point where he actually asked me if I was on drugs, and he wasn't even joking.

Like, how big of a loser do you have to even fucking be to not be able to take fast food orders correctly?

I hate myself so fucking much right now.

Fuck.

feeling an overwhelming sense of nihilism at the moment.

the living situation i've been in pretty much sucks and there isn't really anything i can change about it right now. i don't get enough hours at work on a consistent basis - usually just 4 days a month (which translates to about $300) to be able to support myself if i tried moving out, especially in the area that i live in now because its expensive as balls to live in. unfortunately, i can't drive - i haven't had the opportunity to learn, nor do i have any opportunity to change that any time soon - so i can't move somewhere cheaper without having to quit the job i have, which sounds quite a bit like jumping out of the frying pan into the fire. school also limits the total amount of hours i can work. which brings up another issue: i don't have room for all of the school stuff i have and maintaining some kind of organization system isn't really feasible. my room is crowded enough as is, and getting rid of stuff or re-arranging isn't really an option because this arrangement is the closest to a functional one there is.

even then, motivating myself to give enough of a damn to try and clean or organize it on anything more than superficial level is pretty impossible, even if only for the petty reason that i detest this place and cant even pretend to have any kind of respect for it.

and then there is the fact that my computer just isnt good enough to do what i need it to do for school, making it difficult to give any kind of a fuck about doing things relevant for it at any time but the absolute last minute.

my eyes are also going bad. its getting to the point that i need glasses, but i don't have any way of getting glasses right now. and that, too, is impacting my ability to do things in school because even in the front row i still can't always read whats on the board.

tl;dr:
i'm being vague and i feel like a prisoner because fuck circumstances

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and now my debit card is missing. fucking shit

Yeah, I guess I didn't need that sleep tonight

(09-30-2011, 12:31 AM)oB2Kojjiro Mario Wrote: [ -> ]Yeah, I guess I didn't need that sleep tonight

thisthisthisthisthisthisthisthisthisthisthisthisthis.

It have been 2 weeks since I last had a good night sleep

2011 is sucking bad

I miss my laptop ]:

My rent is due today and I'm $200 low because my roommate is still having trouble securing a job. Time to start praying for a miracle.





My stomach hurts. :/

So I just found out that my maternal granddad has cancer. He's known about it since August but my mum's only told me and my sister now. My other granddad died of cancer before I was born so it's even more shocking to know that my only living granddad has cancer too.

(10-01-2011, 07:43 AM)Alpha Six Wrote: [ -> ]My rent is due today and I'm $200 low because my roommate is still having trouble securing a job. Time to start praying for a miracle.





My stomach hurts. :/

Money issues suck man, ignoring them often makes things worse but thinking of it just makes you feel sick. As a guy looking for a job myself it's something which crops up more than I'd like. Not been too bad as of late mind.



Also really sucks to hear about the cancer. My Granddad has it as well, but I always see it as he's had a long life - and I should be thankful for that.

My Nana just died today. But I'm glad I was able to see her the day before. Rest in peace.

>taking a nap
>mom walks in and starts grabbing my stuff and throwing it in the floor and spilling boxes of stuff everywhere on my floor
>takes my phone and tells me to clean my room or else i'm getting kicked out

what the FUCK

i didn't even do anything to provoke this

it seems as though schoolwork is multiplying as the days go on.

so I guess now that my brother is home my mom is just going to get stoned every day. apparently this is going to be a thing.

Even though I felt as if I could really eat food food for the first time in days, just happens my stomach was fucking with me and apparently can't.

I've felt much more worse these past few hours then I have the rest of the time I was sick. I hate it.