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(07-20-2011, 11:07 PM)oB2Kojjiro Mario Wrote: tons of people on my floor are getting wasted while I'm stuck on mandatory sober squad (literally not by choice)

this is in the happy thread because it succeeded in making me not want to do anything else for tonight
which means I can go to bed early
and I can actually get a decent night's sleep for once
and not have to pop tylenol in the morning to subdue the headaches
!!!!!!

nvm, even more exhausted than usual

fell asleep at 730, was woken up at 1030 by my friend who had called me to make sure i wasn't in his house about to scare him. now i can't sleep.

what.

find out my nana is in danger of dying in march

mom goes to the hospital in june

cat goes missing in july

and now most recently a personal medical issue I don't want to go into

2011 hasn't been the best year for me, I'm finding it hard to deal with

I just want this to be fine, please just be okay

Feeling like complete shit.
Everything is suddenly terrible.

Going to sleep.
Good night.

somehow i had the feeling that i should move with someone from this forum, and that it would work just right.

even wondered what if i went to work with viper.

there is only one bathroom and my brother is in there right now and he takes the longest showers
i have to pee SO BAD oh my god
about to explode

something's telling me I just had a night terror last night

I was in that state where I was half-awake and my eyes were open, but my actions and the things I was seeing were in my head

needless to say, I could -swear- I saw some frenzied old man in an attack position right next to my bed and it scared the everloving shit out of me
and I could swear I let out the biggest scream

the scream caused the man to fade away and I quickly gained full consciousness; turned out I wasn't actually screaming (I would have in turn scared the shit out of my roommate, who says I never woke him up)

but while I was awake, I found myself sitting straight up, my heart was pounding, I was breathing heavily, and I was god damned petrified of going back to sleep (I actually shrugged it off, but I wouldn't turn my face away from the wall adjacent to my bed until the sun began to rise) or doing anything else for that matter (I was actually afraid of leaving my room in case something else would jump at me on the way out).



This is all self-diagnosis but holy hell I do not want to do any of that ever again

(07-22-2011, 09:18 AM)Vipershark Wrote: there is only one bathroom and my brother is in there right now and he takes the longest showers
i have to pee SO BAD oh my god
about to explode

this is why we have trees

Had my first panic attack earlier this morning

probably one of the scariest moments of my life

(07-22-2011, 01:57 AM)CO2 Wrote: somehow i had the feeling that i should move with someone from this forum, and that it would work just right.

even wondered what if i went to work with viper.

Don't leave. Please.

I think he means he wants to move in with someone from here :F




right?

I was just coding and muttered to myself "awesome". I instantly forgot why I said "awesome", rolled my eyes and said "I must be getting old". Then it occurred to me:

All the youngsters blasting music into their ears and slowly losing hearing, staring at the computer screen all day and worsening their eyesight, not exercising and watching their joints weaken...


while our generation may live the longest it will age the fastest............

i meant, to a place together, not into someone's house.

as in sharing a dept.