(01-29-2012, 11:16 PM)Radular Bastard Wrote: I keep edging on the verge of crying but I keep swallowing it back and my stomach continues to hurt. I wish I wasn't such a jackoff and would just let it out, I might actually feel better and might be able to sleep, but those thoughts just keep creeping up on me like I'm cornered.
EDIT: Fuck I really am tired, her internets shit, she'll lose connection like that, and it takes a couple of minutes to update that. Fuck fucking fuck I'm not good right now, I am not good.

I don't have Skype easily accessible, but if you want to talk/vent I do have a piece of junk computer that might run it fairly decently.

Thanks, I've calmed down enough thanks to her, she got connected again a few minutes ago, but if I start crying(bleh) and mentally freaking out again, I'll let you know It really means a lot though, thank you for the offer.
I'm going to try and just lay down, maybe keep the tv on and just fall asleep.

(01-29-2012, 08:34 AM)Radular Bastard Wrote: It's funny how a visual romance novel like Katawa Shoujou can make you realize you're spiralling in loneliness and the despair that you can't escape it. I'm literally scared right now, that my social missteps will leave me alone, and that my life will be a hollow shell with which no one to share it with.
Welcome back depression.

katawa shoujo's like that
hanako route made me realize what i'm doing wrong with my own life


now i'm playing emi route and feeling like this is an incredibly bland story in comparison

edit: finished the emi route. hoh shit

Quote:Literally everything is empty now.
Wooh-fucking-hoo
I have no idea how to fix this.

play mvc3 with me

Nevermind, it's just weighing down uncomfortably, I had to force myself to get lunch today as I haven't really been hungry in the past day and a half :L

i'm irrationally angry over things that literally don't matter at all

i'm really dumb

I feel like I could just explode from stress right now.

Just got my motherboard in the mail and read the box to find out it won't support the memory that will arrive later this week.

Hopefully I can return the memory for a different set, but this whole thing in addition to my cold is making me feel queasy.

I hate Computer Design, I hate Illustrator, and this class sucks. 130 please come faster.

So
lack of sleep + waking up painfully early in conjunction with lack of sleep + 2 cups of coffee in ten minutes = total crash and sadness

ugh, I hate it when I get like this

For the past few weeks I've basically felt like I can't do anything right unless it's something so simple a child could do it.

I want to apply to more colleges, instead just going to community college. but yeah depression is stopping that

Come to my university, 24/7 radular

no, mine, we're one of the top game dev schools in the country !!!!!






and if you don't like the game dev then don't worry, our business degrees and engineering degrees are well-known too~

(02-01-2012, 12:07 AM)oB2Kojjiro Mario Wrote: no, mine, we're one of the top game dev schools in the country !!!!!






and if you don't like the game dev then don't worry, our business degrees and engineering degrees are well-known too~

So are we on all accounts! How come I haven't seen you around campus?