Circulatory System Overhaul

[Alpha Six]

At this point in my life, I've pretty much grown out of this community. Joking around with everybody and moderating this forum just isn't as fun as it previously was.

In the time that I've spent moderating here, I've seen some great times, had some enjoyable topics with fellow members here, met some pretty neat people, and dealt with jackasses, and not once did I complain about it, because I loved being a help to a community I enjoyed being active in.

Unfortunately... I'm not very happy with the way the community has been going lately. This has nothing to do with what recently happened in Spamhaul-- I have felt this way for a long, long time.

Being unprofessional is starting to lose its charm for me now. I'm at that point where the one thing that I want to do more than anything is get PxC started as an official game dev and start making revenue and expanding on the community and the concept itself, and completing Fate's Mirror and some of our other projects. That's all. I want to prove to everybody that I can do it, because I know that I can.

I've hit a roadblock in my life right now. I don't know when I'll get out of it, but I know that the only way I can get out of it is to abandon my primary distractions that are hampering on my productivity. Unfortunately, tSR is one of them. Maybe "abandon" is the wrong word, but oh well.

For the past few months, my productivity has been slipping. And I don't mean "oops I missed a day of work oh well no big deal," I mean "wow I have not been doing SHIT for days and then i do one or two things, then go back to not doing shit." Maybe it's depression. Maybe it's a lack of inspiration. Maybe I'm just really sick right now. Who knows. The only thing I truly know is that I just want to get better. I can be so much more than I am right now. I feel like all I've really done for the past few months is let everybody that I know down-- even when I know I haven't.

My life is really unstable right now. And honestly, the only thing I want is a vacation from everything. However, that's about as likely as a new God Hand, so I have to work with what I have at the moment. It's not my choice, but I have to live with it.

It was fun, but my time here has passed for now. I'll be on PxC or assorted messengers if you need me-- but don't expect me to be on tSR very much. I'll be lurking and posting once in a while if anything.


Farewell. I'll miss you all.

Life is good again, hi.