What do you want for Christmas?

[NICKtendo DS]

Okay, it seems getting anything at all is an absolute no.
My parents can't even afford to pay my brother back (he lent them money because we sometimes struggle to get through the month), let alone spare me some money I could pay back eventually.
We are having pizza for dinner tonight, but that's just a meager comfort for the horrible financial hell I'm forced to live with. Luckily, I'm close to having my support payment thingy I don't know how it's called in English (uitkering) for my autism, which I'll probably start getting end Januari, and with that, I'm going live with my friends around February/March and try to find a job in the games industry. Hopefully my life'll get a little more prosper from then on.
I'm sorry to darken the mood with the chaos I'm currently involved in.