More Apologies

[Maxpphire]

Shouldn't the burden of proof fall on proving that he is an alt and not the other way around?

Chad admitted to us that he was AGJ

I don't know what more proof you guys want, other then the fact he'll say it over Skype and not on the Forums.

That being said sometimes I get conflicted with being staff here.

Like I don't know how to sprite, I've submitted all of one sheet, and I'm not fairly great artistic wise, so I tend to be very much more community based more then anything. I don't post a lot, but thats mainly because I don't really talk much anyway, but if I do have something to add I always do and tend to read more what others have to say instead, and I tend to be know very much what the community likes in terms of how the forums are upkept and things they'd like to see.

Not everyone on the staff team sees this, mainly because either they are more worried about other aspects of the site, or they have lives, or maybe they don't understand as well, or whathaveyou. Sometimes it is hard for me to even mention things, mainly because I know they will be shot down, even more so nowadays.

I've been a staff member here longer then most, even with my 2 year break, I've seen corruption on multiple levels, then it being fought with by "The Dancer's/Dog's/Shrek Resource" and sexism, and other really annoying or morally bad things, and I do think that in a way kinda ruined with how things got handled here. I think a lot of that kinda ruined was how the community was perceived. Not just by other gaming and art communities but by the staff itself and it's absolutely fucking heartbreaking to me because a lot of the time members who are trying to respectfully tell the staff "Hey, I don't agree with you on this thing and I think you're handling it poorly" get met with a really nasty response more often then not, like with what happened with Angie.

This is also why I get so fucking annoyed and angry when someone pulls of shit like AGJ. Don't get me wrong, I love Chad the Dad, I think he is a great guy and I worry about his future. I worry about him going to jail, about how is ankles are healing up, about how he is doing mentally. It's just when shit like this gets pulled and then people get upset over us banning the account, then an actual serious issue appears like The Lounge issue (Yes this is a serious issue, a whole section of the forum was disappearing) and then the people on Staff who have the Final Say in everything don't take the community seriously because of shit like this and consider people being childish over things when the majority of them aren't.

I think this kinda perpetuates the bad reputation we already have. "Well the staff doesn't take the community seriously, so the community has turned into shit, and a lot of really rude and mean people go there as a result." It has nothing to do with Pixeltendo anymore, that was 7, seven, *SEVEN* years ago. People grow up, change, and disappear in seven years. You really think that us asking other communities to advertise TUGS a couple years ago and them telling us no has to do with something that at that point was 5 years ago? Pft please, I doubt any of them really remember Pixeltendo except maybe MFGG. I think it more or less has to do with our own shit that we made.

What really sucks is feeling powerless to make any form of change for the better. Thats actually one of the bigger reasons why I stopped being an admin, and I didn't want to admit this, because not only did it feel as if I let Dazz down, but the entire community and not admitting this and blaming it on personal life factors (which were also a huge contributing factor), allowed me to still be able to face the community and try to help out the best I could from behind the scenes. Which to be honest I worry might be happening to Gors now, and I'm worried Vipershark will become even more harsh as time goes on when he realizes the same thing. I worry about what might happen to this community in the future, because I'm not seeing it get better any time soon and that scares me.

I guess what I'm really saying is that I want this place to grow, but I don't think it will unless both the staff and the community changes how they react to eachother and it scares me to think that things won't change.