Leaving

[Mewthriii]

He's right, you know

Stop making me wish I could kill myself.

okay, now before you go all self-destructive, calm down and listen to my little story.

also note that THIS is not teasing. nor intended to be hurtful. I'm on your side; hear me out.

I was in the EXACT SAME situation back at the old PT. I did not realize it at the time, but some (most) of the stuff I said was very childish. you saying your mom can make decisions for you reminded me of that. and how both you and I took helpful nudges as teasing. it's not teasing, it's not even close. I hate myself for not realizing my mistakes at the time; but learn from me-what you may think is teasing is actually very sound logic that you would do well to listen to.

Things don't spiral out of hand unless you make a scene. Nobody hates you. And your AS should be left out of it. What I notice from what you say is that you always need a crutch-you say that your mom can make your decisions, or AS caused it. Don't you want to be a free person? Making your own decisions? Don't you wan't to be able to wake up in the morning and say "I'm going to quit this summer job my mom found me because I have other plans"?

and AS-if you find yourself blowing up at one of your friends, don't say "I only did that because I have AS" say "okay, that was the wrong thing to do. I should appologise".

how you think about a situation determines the result. and there's always a wrong answer.

and again remember I'm on your side, and the advice I'm giving you is what I learned after I did what you just did. all is not lost, and if you fix things now they may never be lost.


also, I want to know where Dazz was in all of this. I don't know where this happened, but when you quoted the conversation, did you overlook anything dazz might have tried to tell you, like "plaz, let it go; take a breather"? this is a sincere question-I don't know what he did or didn't say.