04-11-2011, 03:58 PM
So I've been doing some heavy life thinking, I don't know where I'm going just yet, but I'm taking time out from here and many other things to figure out what I'm going to do.
So here's what I decided(so far) on doing I guess I'm going to stick out this last semester at artschool, hell it's already paid for. While there and still attending highschool I'll be looking for a job, I'm gonna see if I can just work out that I stay in the scholarship program at art school, and only come in for studies and to use my studio space. I don't want to give up the chance of a scholarship, and I made alot of progress over the past year, but at the same time, I'm still a kid and leave for college soon. I want my life back.
I just was a happier person when I had my job, even if it was pushing carts and bagging grocceries. Yeah it was not a glamour job in the slightest, but I felt accomplished. I had my own money, I was paying for my own things, and I just wasn't a piece of garbage. Now I'm practically going insane, broke ( and bumming money off my parents) basically living at artschool, performing to many unsuccessful and half hearted studies because I've just lost interest. I've also been avoiding going, but it doesn't make me happy, it just makes it worse and going does the same.
I really don't know what I'm doing in life, I need to figure this out soon, so I'll see you guys when I see you.
So here's what I decided(so far) on doing I guess I'm going to stick out this last semester at artschool, hell it's already paid for. While there and still attending highschool I'll be looking for a job, I'm gonna see if I can just work out that I stay in the scholarship program at art school, and only come in for studies and to use my studio space. I don't want to give up the chance of a scholarship, and I made alot of progress over the past year, but at the same time, I'm still a kid and leave for college soon. I want my life back.
I just was a happier person when I had my job, even if it was pushing carts and bagging grocceries. Yeah it was not a glamour job in the slightest, but I felt accomplished. I had my own money, I was paying for my own things, and I just wasn't a piece of garbage. Now I'm practically going insane, broke ( and bumming money off my parents) basically living at artschool, performing to many unsuccessful and half hearted studies because I've just lost interest. I've also been avoiding going, but it doesn't make me happy, it just makes it worse and going does the same.
I really don't know what I'm doing in life, I need to figure this out soon, so I'll see you guys when I see you.